Chapter 45 - The Strength From Above

Through all these..  

I'm constantly reminded

My God, is My Sufficiency..

It is when I'm weak, You make me strong

Whom have I in heaven, but You?

Chapter Sei Sei - The Countdown

I only have 41 days left to FYP submission. A Sei Sei chapter indeed.

1 week to finish up diagrams, 2 weeks for programming, 1 week testing, 1 week conclusion = 35 days in total, only 6 days of buffer time.

o-m-gee

Chapter 43 - The Decision

Luke 9:57-62

57 As they were walking along the road, a man said to him, "I will follow you wherever you go."

 58 Jesus replied, "Foxes have holes and birds of the air have nests, but the Son of Man has no place to lay his head."

 59 He said to another man, "Follow me." 
      But the man replied, "Lord, first let me go and bury my father."

 60 Jesus said to him, "Let the dead bury their own dead, but you go and proclaim the kingdom of God."

 61 Still another said, "I will follow you, Lord; but first let me go back and say good-by to my family."

 62 Jesus replied, "No one who puts his hand to the plow and looks back is fit for service in the kingdom of God."

All that's needed is faith. To trust Him as we leave behind concerns, worries, insecurities, doubts and even the feeling of inadequacy despite however 'relevant' and 'justifyable' the reasons may seem to be to just follow Him, knowing that all things will be set in place for Him to use as He reveals the plans and purposes He has for our lives. 

This...Is Now...

My prayer is that we won't just be a generation that merely talks and FEEL passionate about something but is not willing to do anything about it by giving a 'justifyable' reason. We might just miss out on something great.

"Open my eyes, to see the things that make Your heart cry. To be a generation that You would desire, Your light to be seen. Break down my pride, and all the walls I've built up inside, my earthly crowns and all my desires, I lay at your feet.."

"Let hope rise, and darkness tremble in Your holy light. That every eye will see that Jesus is my God, great and mighty to be praised.."

"...for this is our God, great and mighty to be praised indeed."

"Amen"

Chapter 42 - The Twenty-Second Year of Living

Today marks an end to the first day of being a twenty-two year old. I must say that this year's "celebration" was indeed a unique one. A series of event happened and 'unique' is the only possible way of describing it in this blog.

So, what happened? Basically there are/were decisions to be made regarding ministry stuff and more and the consequences of a certain decision is kicking in. It is a persistent feeling that never goes away depite the many things I do, feeling as though everything has failed and I'm just.. very useless..

"Your grace is enough

Heaven reaching down to us
Your grace is enough for me
God I see your grace is enough
I'm covered in your love
Your grace is enough for me
For me"

- Chris Tomlin, Your Grace is Enough

Chapter 41 - THE HORROR

i was happily doing up the layout for the assignment i'm working on and the moment i decided to test whether my program is still working or not, it DIDN'T! the buttons completely stopped functioning!!!! i panicked and got uber worried as i spent alot of effort in writting the program. 

immediately googled and found many solutions that didn't work!!! i said a short prayer and somehow a solution came to me and i tried it and it worked!!!

THANK YOU GOD FOR HELPING ME!!

ps. just thought of sharing the moment with you. who says God doesn't know anything bout programming huh? ;)

Chapter 40 - The 50th Post

1 year ago i wouldn't have even thought i would last till the 50th post in this blog. i seriously thought i was gonna stop at every point of time. haha.

anyhow, classes have resumed for about 2 weeks or so now and its surprisingly okay i guess though i'm trying to finish off my assignments before CNY so that i can concentrate fully on my FYP after that. i don't understand why must they give us 2 HUGE assignments during the final semester with the same due date as FYP. its insane.

code code code and more codes! just thought of showing all of you what programming is like. its NOT a series of 010100101101010101010101000011011101010 like you all think! ;) i'm having quite a hard time with this assignment now though.. so yea, time to get back to work now!

01000010 01011001 01000101 00100001

ps. the binary numbers meant: BYE!

Chapter 39 - 2009

wow, its 2009 already. 2008 came and went by amazingly quick.. the past year was filled with a number of different experiences and sleepless nights. in this post, i will be revealing a thing or two that you people may not even know it happened so yea ;)

1) Was called to head the events department of CY

it was entirely different to lead a department as a whole and to merely organize an event like past years. events were planned back to back and tons of other aspects to consider at one go. though i really didn't think i've done well at all and worth mentioning, but i guess i could say i've given my all that i could possibly give at that very point of time for this ministry, for every event that was planned throughout 2008 (amazing race, missions month, youth camp, cg/lg outings, movies, etc).

2) Was reinstalled as a LG leader

this was and still is a humbling experience for me as leading a LG is not anywhere near an easy task. despite my existing busy schedule, i admit that it is uber difficult to actually fork out time to care for each and every member individually. however i thank God for somehow giving me opportunities to help and guide them whenever possible, not forgetting placing both Brian and Esther in the very same LG working together for our members. ultimately the members are the very reason why i still insist to remain here even though i'm busy.

3) Had the opportunity to share God's word in CY

though i've shared a number of times in CCSM, Teen's Class and even in CY itself, "Emo-lution" was the only time where the numbers were the greatest of all. i thank God for giving me the Word and the courage to stand in front to share as i honestly say that i do not like sharing from the front as it is very difficult to do so especially when i know i'm not perfect in fulfilling God's word as i stand and speak. i struggle with myself all the time when such opportunity is given.

4) Managed to launch Shirts 4 Real's Illuminate collection publicly

5) Obtained good contacts in New Zealand and Australia for Shirts 4 Real's expansion purposes

6) Organized the Fleur-de-Lis under the banner of Shirts 4 Real and A Shopaholic's Den

7) Given the opportunity to gain publicity at the Hillsong United concert @ GTPJ

all these couldn't have happened without God in the picture. now that i look back, i've got no idea how i managed to put all these together without going crazy. the workload, i remember, it was insane. all the brainstorming sessions, all the communication work, all the physical work, etc etc.. it was insane..

8) Witnessed the growth and potential of Genesis IT Solutions & Services

i recall the days where Joel and i used to fix home computers during college days and eventually dived into starting up this company where we don't really know where were we heading to exactly. today, this company is actually doing well in the data recovery industry and if you look us up, we're actually one of the top 5 in Malaysia for such services. it is amazing to see how God's grace and mercy works in life.

9) Got featured in emmagem.com!

now this is one nobody knows! i got featured on their site after the Shirts 4 Real launch @ Positive Cafe and i thought it would be interesting to disclose since its the new year lol!

10) Got featured on Business Times!

well well, the last time i went on local papers was when i was still in kindergarten and was featured alongside my dad. this time however, is a whole new thing altogether. 

11) Got featured on 20Questions!

this is my first time on a talk show. though it is an online one but it is still something i've never experienced and it was quite fun and scary at the same time since we are to do it in one single take!

12) Organized The Malaysian Entrepreneur Challenge

this is definitely one of the biggest event organized thus far! the amount of coordination work itself is enough to kill. this is apart from the brainstorming and the inception phase of the entire project itself. 

i guess the above are the highlights of 2008. of course there are others such as the friends and people placed in my life that has made a significant difference in who i am today. without this bunch of people, i know i'll definitely not make it. 

i'm eager to know what 2009 has in store. i pray that i'll remain in God's will and not wander off into my own orbit (refer to camp booklet devotion day 2 ;) ) of life.