Chapter 49 - It Has Been Awhile...

It has indeed been awhile, isn't it? I'm quite curious to see who still drops by after the long long long absence... 3 months, was it? Somehow stumbled my way back here and decided to post to give the blog a little push...

Well, I'm officially DONE with FYP, studies and what not for now but guess what? I'm not even the slightest bit free-er (apart from the fact I do not need to attend clsases anymore). In fact, I'm MUCH busy-er. Projects aside, the number of ministry meetings I have to attend throughout the week is... great.

Anyhow, I thank God for bringing me so far in life - kindergarten, upsr, pmr, spm, degree, my work... though it may not be anything in the eyes of men, but it has been awesome with God through it all! Speaking about degree, my results should be out in July.. and this is also the first time I'm actually worried about my results!

Bleh, I can't think of anything else to blog about. Looks like I've reached my limit lol.

Chapter 48 - So Close Yet So Far

Well well, I've finally survived March 25th aka FYP Submission Day but the battle is far from it being over!

It was quite a sight on the week before submission as the library was flooded with coursemates trying to finish up everything on time. I, on the other hand worked myself out at home by not sleeping or, at the very maximum, approx 2 hours a day to complete what I've have left. I'll post up pictures of my documentation soon when I receive the hardbound copy back from the shop soon. I take great pride in my documentation as it is my sweat and blood... and sleepless nights..

2 more submissions (Monday and Wednesday), 1 15minute presentation (Thursday), FYP minimum 60minute presentation (unknown) and my final exams (20th April).

I will be officially done with studies after that then.. finally a breather from studies after all these years! Not to say that I'll be totally free as I'll be working on several projects immediately after but yea, at least I'm free from the grasp of studying!

ahhh.. sounds good huh? but I've to get back to assignments now.. zzz

Chapter 47 - ...

 I am sick of FYP.. It is at a stage where I feel like vomitting (physically) when I'm facing the codes. It is pretty bad..  

Chapter 46 - Counting The Days

Only 22 days left before the FYP plague passes. Throughout the past weeks, I've been going on a routine that is somewhat amazing and its truly only do-able with God's strength and favor.

Mondays - Fridays: 9am - 5am [fyp fyp and more fyp]

Saturdays: 10am - 2am [youth + fyp]

Sundays: depends - 5am [fyp again]

But the truth is, FYP is not the end yet as there are 3 more project submissions, project presentations, FYP presentation and my finals which will commence after the 25th. This also means that the plague will not be over till April-ish-May.

Ahh..the joy of a final year student :)

not..

Chapter 45 - The Strength From Above

Through all these..  

I'm constantly reminded

My God, is My Sufficiency..

It is when I'm weak, You make me strong

Whom have I in heaven, but You?

Chapter Sei Sei - The Countdown

I only have 41 days left to FYP submission. A Sei Sei chapter indeed.

1 week to finish up diagrams, 2 weeks for programming, 1 week testing, 1 week conclusion = 35 days in total, only 6 days of buffer time.

o-m-gee

Chapter 43 - The Decision

Luke 9:57-62

57 As they were walking along the road, a man said to him, "I will follow you wherever you go."

 58 Jesus replied, "Foxes have holes and birds of the air have nests, but the Son of Man has no place to lay his head."

 59 He said to another man, "Follow me." 
      But the man replied, "Lord, first let me go and bury my father."

 60 Jesus said to him, "Let the dead bury their own dead, but you go and proclaim the kingdom of God."

 61 Still another said, "I will follow you, Lord; but first let me go back and say good-by to my family."

 62 Jesus replied, "No one who puts his hand to the plow and looks back is fit for service in the kingdom of God."

All that's needed is faith. To trust Him as we leave behind concerns, worries, insecurities, doubts and even the feeling of inadequacy despite however 'relevant' and 'justifyable' the reasons may seem to be to just follow Him, knowing that all things will be set in place for Him to use as He reveals the plans and purposes He has for our lives. 

This...Is Now...

My prayer is that we won't just be a generation that merely talks and FEEL passionate about something but is not willing to do anything about it by giving a 'justifyable' reason. We might just miss out on something great.

"Open my eyes, to see the things that make Your heart cry. To be a generation that You would desire, Your light to be seen. Break down my pride, and all the walls I've built up inside, my earthly crowns and all my desires, I lay at your feet.."

"Let hope rise, and darkness tremble in Your holy light. That every eye will see that Jesus is my God, great and mighty to be praised.."

"...for this is our God, great and mighty to be praised indeed."

"Amen"

Chapter 42 - The Twenty-Second Year of Living

Today marks an end to the first day of being a twenty-two year old. I must say that this year's "celebration" was indeed a unique one. A series of event happened and 'unique' is the only possible way of describing it in this blog.

So, what happened? Basically there are/were decisions to be made regarding ministry stuff and more and the consequences of a certain decision is kicking in. It is a persistent feeling that never goes away depite the many things I do, feeling as though everything has failed and I'm just.. very useless..

"Your grace is enough

Heaven reaching down to us
Your grace is enough for me
God I see your grace is enough
I'm covered in your love
Your grace is enough for me
For me"

- Chris Tomlin, Your Grace is Enough

Chapter 41 - THE HORROR

i was happily doing up the layout for the assignment i'm working on and the moment i decided to test whether my program is still working or not, it DIDN'T! the buttons completely stopped functioning!!!! i panicked and got uber worried as i spent alot of effort in writting the program. 

immediately googled and found many solutions that didn't work!!! i said a short prayer and somehow a solution came to me and i tried it and it worked!!!

THANK YOU GOD FOR HELPING ME!!

ps. just thought of sharing the moment with you. who says God doesn't know anything bout programming huh? ;)

Chapter 40 - The 50th Post

1 year ago i wouldn't have even thought i would last till the 50th post in this blog. i seriously thought i was gonna stop at every point of time. haha.

anyhow, classes have resumed for about 2 weeks or so now and its surprisingly okay i guess though i'm trying to finish off my assignments before CNY so that i can concentrate fully on my FYP after that. i don't understand why must they give us 2 HUGE assignments during the final semester with the same due date as FYP. its insane.

code code code and more codes! just thought of showing all of you what programming is like. its NOT a series of 010100101101010101010101000011011101010 like you all think! ;) i'm having quite a hard time with this assignment now though.. so yea, time to get back to work now!

01000010 01011001 01000101 00100001

ps. the binary numbers meant: BYE!